Benjin-Jesse

I was already becoming less of a human before I became more human than you. Trapped in my mind, screaming behind my face; nerves bleed from the stress, true. Glass man, glass man, sit up, stand out. What's your name, what's my name? Heavy hearts fall apart. Do more, be less. Don't fall down, don't fall down. Forgiving more than you ever could imagine, but unable to forgive me, even myself. I put my heavy heart made of impure steel away, hidden, tucked back on a shelf. Glass man, glass man, sit up, stand out. What's your name, what's my name? Heavy hearts fall apart. Do more, be less. Don't fall down, don't fall down. When everyone else lo

I’ll tell you something. Everybody is different, everybody is the same. It’s okay to see the similarities, because strangely we’re human, alike. Forcing anyone into uniformity is bad, because we are different. If there is to be union, let it be in choice, love, and with our differences, Because, clearly,  we are the same, you and me and we. I’ll drop you a clue. A person can be smart, but people are stupid. It’s okay to think in a group, because a person can bring intelligence. To follow the crowd like a sheeple without thinking it through is dumb. Please, don’t give up your own thought because it’s

The blank page, crumpled, disregarded in despair. I'm the chalkboard, poorly wiped clear because I can't... I can't take the time. Going numb again and I need to hide. My tears are raping my eyes behind their shut doors. “Please, save me!” A command I can never say. It hurts, But if I try to ask for it, it hurts unbearably worse. Why? The toilet, pissed on, it seem that it's just part of "life". I'm just there, nobody cares in the end because...it is the end And nobody is here. Alone, even in company, I’m hallow inside. My heart is made of steel, it falls harder and harder… hitting, breaking Again and again and agai

The world is too awake; I just can’t stand it… So annoying. It’s all too bright and hopeful. Though it may just be a lack of enough sleep, But even when rested, I feel the same way. Dreams get crushed, loved ones die, we’re alone. We scramble to achieve happiness to no avail. Debt, divorce, death, despair fill our lives. Fighting for no reason but to stop our pain.

I realize I never stopped to care and I'm never going to compare. Empty and alone, doesn't feel right... but that seems for what I fight! I realize, for me, you'll never be there. You can strip me, body and soul, bare! Doesn't matter the shades of light, who I am, you'll never have that sight! You think I'm the one not being fair? Rich! You're not the one who is outcast, always forgotten, left hollow at night! I was used, lied to and abandoned fast! Now it is my opportunity to outlast. Good bye, finally, I can say that, at last.

Waning in slumber Un-escaping perceptions It’s reality

  I'm alone. Surrounded by people that I know and love, I am lone. The din of the music fading to a thick muffled thumping that mimics a lost confused bass line; my brain can only handle so much right now. The drink in my hand isn’t strong enough to cloud the emptiness.  The miasma of my memories from the past year rise up as pillars in a Greek temple made of swirly, ethereal marble. I can see their foggy forms twisting, but if I try to touch one, my hand fades through and I hear the entire cloud like hall moan from the lost support. Everything, from the empty walls and roof and floor… even the other columns lament and threaten